ups and downs.

not feeling well.

not emotionally nor mentally nor physically.

i think i prefer death more than life now.

its not that i'll go finding death. its just that i won't run away if it comes to me now.

i'm physically not well. and i always love extra attention at time like this. but i am not getting any. so i have to cope with it now. 

i'm not mentally nor emotionally well too. because my physical condition leads me to this stage.

seriously, nor i really prefer to die. even though dying is never better than living.