it was damn tough. i knew it will be that way and i thought i was fully prepared. but it turned out that i was never ready enough for that. my heart broke but does the person care? its just him and his happiness, and fun. its like i was standing in between him and his happiness. alright buddy. i won't stand between you and your happiness anymore. its your right to do whatever you want. i forgot who i am. it was my fault to care about you. mark my words, i won't stay in between you and your happiness anymore. and i am sorry for caring about you.
the other part of the night was even tougher. had to stay awake all night to witness something. its my first time. and it was ridiculous. i can't believe there are such people in this world. and they are Malays! and they are Muslims! gosh!!!
my head is spinning like hell. i know i need rest, physically and mentally. kak wawa has already asleep. it was a tough night for both of us. we both need long, peaceful rest.
