the same end.

always the same ending for me.

always the same tears.

always the same person.

always the same reason.

always the same time.

am i stupid to let this thing happen so many times in my short life?

why do i let this happen to me?

and why am i always end up here?

i  have many good friends.
always here with me.
but it is me who refuse to share.
it is me who refuse to tell them my everything.
i find it hard to share what i am feeling.
to those good people around me.
my friends are all good.
but i need someone i trust.
my friends are trustworthy.
but it is me who is too difficult to understand.
i am too difficult to reach.
therefore...

dear Allah,

please give me a shoulder to cry on.

someone i need.

for i am weak.

i am always in need.

please give me someone who i can trust.

i need to cry my heart out.

but my tears just wont come out.

i need someone i can trust.

someone who i know really loves me.

and really cares.

not just pretending.

i need a pure soul.

i need a break.

i know i need to chill a lil bit.

and i am taking a break.

n0w.